I love myself enough…..

I love myself enough to do what is necessary. I love myself enough to make some very difficult changes. I love myself enough to embark on this journey and stick with it. I love myself enough to change my lifestyle. And I love myself enough to try.

Two weeks ago I had yet another surgery. It just so happens to have been the 5th one in the last 4 years. The last 4 years have been the most difficult years of my life. 4 years! I had come to terms with the fact I was going to be sick for the rest of my life. Having been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, endometriosis and functional movement disorder; chronic pain and fatigue were just a fraction of what my life has become. After surgery the doctor discovered the endometriosis has taken ahold of my bladder, a fairly rare occurrence. I figured, “ok, just one more thing to add to the list.”

However, something struck me really hard today and I just thought to myself I’ve had enough!!! I’ve had enough of always being tired, sick, weak and overweight. I’ve had enough of giving into my disabilities. So I have decided to make a change.

I do not expect fast or easy results. I do not expect a miracle cure. In fact, I don’t expect to be cured at all. What I do need is something to make my quality of life better.

So today marks the first day of my new journey. The first day of change. Currently I do not drink ANY water during the day. I consume an average of 3 sodas and 2 cups of coffee per day. I eat out about 4 or 5 times a week. Carbs and Sugars have been my weakness. I smoke almost a pack of cigarettes a day.

My goal is to stop putting all of these toxins into my body. slowly because Lord knows I never have been successful quitting anything cold turkey.

Today I started with a glass of water. Tomorrow I’ll make another change. Each day I’m going to tell myself that I am worth the change.

Because I love myself enough to do what is necessary

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